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[SR] Jessica Zafra quote
Aug. 28th, 2009 11:38 pm[Italicized quote from RP with ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
aplayfulpup. Becca is waterdoesntwork.]
“The question is not why fools fall in love. It is expected of them. When smart people fall in love - that's the problem.”
“There’s really only one person I trust.”
It shouldn’t have stung this much. She should have seen it coming. She did see it coming, in fact, but she had thought the slap would come if (when) she actually fell for him. She was expecting things to be hard when it came to the more complicated stuff. She didn’t expect it to come from what, in her mind, was one of the simplest things in their relationship. The thing she had taken for granted. It wasn’t a matter of him not loving her, it was a matter of him not trusting her, and that—that came like a gut punch.
She could have lived with him not loving her. That wasn’t what their relationship was, and she wasn’t deluded enough to believe otherwise. She was aware that there would be a point where they couldn’t have what they did anymore, but she thought it would be because she wasn’t enough of a masochist to be in love with someone who didn’t love her. She didn’t expect the sucker punch to come from left field over something as simple as trust. She’d never realized how much that mattered until that very moment, and the fact that he couldn’t, he couldn’t manage even that kind of feeling for her, sent her crashing very quickly.
It wasn’t even the physical part of the equation, even though that one made the most sense. Aaron wasn’t exactly a small guy, and she wasn’t exactly a kung-fu champion, so she was trusting him beyond his word not to hurt her. But it was more than that. She’d told him personal things, emotional things, because she thought they were friends. That they trusted each other and were friends and she could say those things to him. And now she was starting to question whether or not he even cared.
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aplayfulpup. Becca is waterdoesntwork.]“The question is not why fools fall in love. It is expected of them. When smart people fall in love - that's the problem.”
“There’s really only one person I trust.”
It shouldn’t have stung this much. She should have seen it coming. She did see it coming, in fact, but she had thought the slap would come if (when) she actually fell for him. She was expecting things to be hard when it came to the more complicated stuff. She didn’t expect it to come from what, in her mind, was one of the simplest things in their relationship. The thing she had taken for granted. It wasn’t a matter of him not loving her, it was a matter of him not trusting her, and that—that came like a gut punch.
She could have lived with him not loving her. That wasn’t what their relationship was, and she wasn’t deluded enough to believe otherwise. She was aware that there would be a point where they couldn’t have what they did anymore, but she thought it would be because she wasn’t enough of a masochist to be in love with someone who didn’t love her. She didn’t expect the sucker punch to come from left field over something as simple as trust. She’d never realized how much that mattered until that very moment, and the fact that he couldn’t, he couldn’t manage even that kind of feeling for her, sent her crashing very quickly.
It wasn’t even the physical part of the equation, even though that one made the most sense. Aaron wasn’t exactly a small guy, and she wasn’t exactly a kung-fu champion, so she was trusting him beyond his word not to hurt her. But it was more than that. She’d told him personal things, emotional things, because she thought they were friends. That they trusted each other and were friends and she could say those things to him. And now she was starting to question whether or not he even cared.
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711 words
